MY WISH

So I am sitting here waiting for BJ to come home from work. And I wonder about all the things we have in our life. I wonder if we are actually happy where we are....in Fort St. John,  in a house, in marriage, in life......And if the answer is no, I wonder how to change that. I wonder if it as simple as changing your mindset, or "creating" a life that is dreamful, seamless, and perfect. I wonder if such a place exists where there is happiness and bliss, where is rains flowers on sundays and rainbows on mondays, where the deer bound in the fields and you can pick up the little grey rabbits and snuggle them close to your cheek. The world where I can get atop my horse King and ride into the sunset with the warm breeze on my armhairs with my hair flopping in the wind and feeling the rythm of his feel, the smell of leather in the air and the warm suns rays kissing each inch of my skin. His mane trailing in the wind never having to worry about darkness or danger. Making my own song on the mountain hill amidst the wild flowers and the honeybees.

And once I believe I did hold all of this, there was laughter and there was love, the angels protection and their love. When I could speak to the wild animals and tame them, and walk for miles and never get tired. Lying on a bed of grass was like a cushion or a pillow and I was not in harm's way. For one day I wish I could live this fairytale, this life. Where there is no anger, no illness, no fighting no pain, but love and affection and everyone the same. The animals listened to you when you call and never was anything the matter at all......